Man it’s just so confusing. Topomax did work to relieve the headaches for several months, but it also was slowly making me lose my entire memory. I work in software sales, and parts of my delivery that I’ve been giving for four years were being interrupted by stuttering and the uh’s uh’s – I mean I was just not at peak level at all.
But what really made me just HAVE TO STOP – was the loss of basic math. I got to the point where I couldn’t do basic equations that I’d mastered in 2nd grade. For our contracts for instance, you have to put in the quarterly amount, multiple by four, then enter all the different line items, and it just got so bad I couldn’t do that basic level of functional math. Had to stop. Shocked people have been on that for years.
My best friend sits next to me took a half of the dosage I was on and quit in three months for the exact same reason, and then when you google the side effects, my God they are scary as hell.
So I’m back to just winging it, and going to a chiropractor regularly. And it had been going well, but then the last couple of days got pretty rough. I’d say I’d gone three four months since getting off the topomax and not having a MAJOR migraine, but man I got hit with one that last two days straight Thursday through today, and nothing touched it.
My sister in law sent me a Ginger Powder homeopathic remedy and I tried it last night but after two hours nothing.
I did end up taking the tried and true Indomethacin though, and it seems to have kept it at bay… I may try to just take this stuff as needed.
If that fails the doctor has given me a time release version of it.
As for the book – I think it’s finally ready to go to press.
I’ve honestly been dreading it, I feel like the title sucks, even though will work well for Amazon and Google search engines supposedly, it’s just corny, but I mean I’m going to follow through with it, too late to go back now.
It will be completed at least, this 8 year journey, with only the audiobook left to complete.
Then maybe I’ll reach out to all the positive reviewers of the first book and ask them to review again for the new one.
But I just feel like it’s going to be an inevitable commercial failure, sorry I do, lol, the reality is I’m a nobody, just a local Atlanta kid turned middle age adult whose gotten sober. Another bozo on the bus.
The fact that I let my life go to shambles as a result of alcholism and addiction, debt and piss poor living is so unremarkable it hardly deserves a book, and yet I felt compelled to write it.
The recovery though, God stepping in and saving my life, being there for me at every juncture, giving me the cure for Hep C, and actually curing me, when it was a 50/50 shot back then, for FREE when the meds cost $50,000 was note worthy.
However I spend a lot of time in the book on the drunk a log. I hired, and paid an editor a lot of money, and she turned out to do a real half ass job as it comes to content, and essentially left everything in there. Then she really screwed me over, demanding her name be removed from the book, after it had gone to print in January of this year. Really messed me up.
But I digress, over the years I’ve put a lot of money, time energy and effort into books4free.com and now the book is launching and I hope it does OK, but honestly I don’t have high hopes like I did the first time I went to market.
I think if I do write another book, if I’m ever so inspired, which I haven’t been since, I will do it through Amazon. Just to get a baseline and then learn the ins and outs of how they do it, versus the enormous amounts of work I put in to launch one.
Anyway, it will be cool to have the project be completed, and then throw a little Google Ad words money at it, maybe some facebook promotional dollars, just to see what happens.
Anyway, coming soon:
Spiral’s End: Hepatitis C and Me
BY: Jared Bryan Smith
JB Smiths Blog - Author @ books4free.com 